My First Blog

Hello readers. This is my first blog on here. I have been blogging for some time on myspace, however I feel I need a new outlet, one that will allow me release all these thoughts and feelings of everyday life of an Army wife, at least in my perspective! Today I attended an event called "SpouseBuzz Live" it was great. You can go to spousebuzz.com to get more info. I was inspired today to start my own blog. I am in the last month of the current deployment, I really wish I had this thing earlier! However, I feel it came to me just in time. I feel that I handled this deployment very well, but the last couple months have been really hard emotionally on me. At SpouseBuzz today I met ArmywifeToddlermom, I felt that she spoke right to me! She told this amazing homecoming story. It was not your typical sweet happy homecoming story. It was exactly what I needed to hear. I was beginning to think I was the only spouse who was afraid of the homecoming, who pretty much dreaded the whole thing. She helped me to see that I am not alone with these feelings. Most of what I am feeling is because I am just so afraid things won't be "ready" or "perfect" for when my husband gets home. This is all stress that I am putting on myself. My husband just wants to be home with me and our dog, wake up in the morning next to me, and sing his song in our shower. He is not expecting this whole idea that I have in my head. I know he has tried to tell me this before, but I never "heard" him till I was listening to ArmywifeToddlermom's story today. I am so grateful to her for telling her story, I almost feel not so crazy inside! I will be blogging more, telling the readers a little more about me, and I can't wait to hear any comments or questions!